Devlog - 28 (why I've been away)

So.. I guess it started with the usual problem, getting tired of working on the same thing every day.

Game Dev is pretty much the only thing I do, I basically wake up and then sit here the entire day until I almost fall asleep while sitting,

I probably have all kinds of problems since I've been doing it like this for many years now but I got nothing else so what am I to do.

Anyway, back to the original topic:

So, I got tired of working on the same thing every day over and over again which then spiraled into depression (more than I already have) because I knew I had to work on the game and then I feel worse because I'm not working on the game and so on.

Then I got into working on my side project and basically put Zordak on the backburner for a while.

And then just as I was starting to feel a bit better, I woke up one day and after a few minutes, barely got to eat breakfast, my cat which I've had for 18 years just up and died, which obviously didn't improve the mood.

So yeah, that's the short version I guess.

I'm trying to get back into working on Zordak again, I've done a bit of work since my last tweet about me being back on Zordak but I'll save that until saturday when I usually post devlogs.

So, Zordak is not dead, I've got a lot of things a want to do with it, it's just going to take time.

Thank you all for staying with me so far, hopefully most of you will still be here when the game is done but it's fine if that is not the case.

I'll be trying to get a proper devlog up on saturday.

Anyway, thanks for reading and hopefully now understanding why I've not been posting much.

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Sorry to hear things are not going well, and very sad to hear about your cat. Pets are so special and it's not fair they don't get to stay around forever, I know that feel. At least you can think you gave your cat a good home for its entire life and that's very important :)

It's also important to maintain a good balance between work and life, and your "work" here is game development. Start small, like go for a walk each morning and evening, you could consider that your "commute" so you start working on games after your morning walk and you stop working after your evening work. Take a break in the evening and do something you enjoy, whether that's seeing friends or playing games or just lying on the couch watching shows.

Try and work a little exercise (cardio or weights or whatever you prefer, it doesn't matter) and meditation into your routine, they will help your brain produce better chemicals which will keep your mood more steady and at least help a bit with depression.

I hope that helps. But overall, do look after yourself. Your personal health is more important than video games or random people on the internet like us.

Yeah.. There's nothing you can do about it, it's just how life works.

I used to take walks almost every day for a couple of months but it got a bit boring going through the same places every day so that pretty much just stopped. I want to start doing that again but I live in Sweden so soon it's going to be freezing outside and so much snow that you can barely get out of the door, which will not increase motivation. So that will likely not happen until spring/summer.

And yes, I should definitely exercise more, I used to do a little bit of that during the same period when I took walks.

I want to take care of myself better but it's at a point where it's hard to get motivated to do that when you don't have much motivation to begin with.

Anyway, thanks for taking the time to comment.

Just start out small, like a single walk maybe 3 times a week. Set a reminder on your phone to prompt you cos it's not in your routine atm. Don't be mad at yourself if you forget or whatever. Just say, oh well I'll try again tomorrow.

If you don't feel like it, you can try trick yourself into it. Like get your shoes on and just walk to the footpath. Now you're there and ready, you may as well keep going for a small walk anyway.

It takes 2-3 weeks to form a habit. That's the hardest part. After that it becomes easier :)

I'll see if I can try some of those things at some point.

Worst case scenario I'll be trying it out in spring/summer because then I will be going out for walks no matter what, that has already been decided long ago.

Thanks for the suggestions, we'll see how it works out. :)

Do what you gotta do to take care of yourself. I have an 18 year old meow myself, and I'd probably have to take several days off work to deal with the pain when he eventually passes. We aren't going anywhere. Seriously, take care of yourself; we look forward to Zordak whenever it's ready. 

I'm doing the best I can.

Yeah, as mentioned, it didn't exactly lighten up the mood.

Sorry for being a bit brief here, I don't really have anything else to say right now.

Thanks for reading the post and taking the time to comment.

I'm going through the exact same thing since I writing a novel and even though I'm almost done, life, mood, and this 'blaming yourself for non being productive while doing nothing' circle is real. Thing is when I'm out, this is the only thing I think of, I'm like 'damn, I want to write, right now' but when I'm home, I'm more often on 9gag or playing a game than writing. Just for you to know that you're not alone in this, and sometimes, those creativity emptiness can be somehow productive, because the moment you create again, you do it with a fresh eye and a big rage.

good luck man, keep it up

your game will be great.


Yeah I know exactly what you're talking about.

You want to work on something, you know you need to work on it, and yet when you try to do it you can't get anything done or you get lost doing something else completely ignoring the fact that you need to work on it.

And that's when you start to get disappointed at yourself for not doing the thing you know you should be doing.

And yes, that is definitely true, coming back from a longer break usually lead to faster and bigger improvements to whatever you're working on.

Thanks for taking the time to read the post and commenting.

Sorry to hear about your depression and hope you are doing well. Zordak is shaping up to be an excellent game and it's clear that a lot of work and passion has gone into it. The pixel art animation is fantastic and it feels like a perfect homage to the Metroid games. Really glad that you're continuing to work on it.

There's no shame in taking time out if a project it getting you down though. Video game design is an artform and if you're not feeling it, then it's hard to force yourself to do it. Sometimes it's good to take a break, play some games just for fun or even do a small game jam game as a palate cleanser. 

Best wishes and keep up the great work (but don't feel obliged to work!) :)

Yeah I'm fine, no need to worry about that, I just felt like I needed to tell everyone why there's been so much radio silence for a while.

Thanks for the kind words about the game, really appreciate it.

I'm going to finish the game however long it takes, I pretty much owe it to myself at this point.

So expect more updates in the future, the next devlog is probably not going to be that exciting but maybe the one after that, who knows.

Yeah, I know, you need to take a break sometimes.

But sometimes it just feels like a waste of time to take a break, you know you need to finish a project but then you get disappointed at yourself for not working on it, but I get what you mean.

Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read and comment.